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Tuesday, February 26, 2008, 12:18:00 AM

yesterday i started off by going to the doc's..wa, i went there around 1130am la..then the registration counter put this big notice:

DUE TO OVERWHELMING CROWD, ALL VISITS HAVE BEEN BROUGHT FORWARD TO 130PM..

i didn't care la cuz' at the very last end, there's this notice that says if we still want to see the doctor, we can still register but then we must come in at 130pm..got myself registered & i went to have lunch...sms darling what time he's ending his lesson..he said around 430pm..so i intend to go home, bathe, pack my stuff & meet him..before my shower, i went to pack my stuff first..as i just came back & it's so damn hot!!! the weather that is..hee..if only i could go sun-tanning..*dreams* (: went out carrying my heavy bag (labtop inside ma) lug it all the way to the doctor's..need to wait ma..so while killing time...i played my ds..that zelda game..haha..fun lor..in the midst of cracking that problem..see doctor ler, i sms darling..

me: i'm done with the doctor's just need to wait for medication

darling: i going striaght to vivo after school to buy L toy (deathnote's character)

me: ok so where to meet & what time to meet?

darling: i going with weiwen so i meet you at 5pm at my house downstair..

me: orh..then i need to kill that 2hrs myself ler...( it was 3pm at that time) don't know what to do..

was kind of sad when he told me that la cuz' i didn't know what to do for that 2hrs..moreover, i'm carrying my labtop around..it's so heavy & i'm sick..he didn't even care..never even bothered to reply..so i was thinking where to go..sms sam she also busy doing her work..then i saw mac..cuz' there's wireless there ma so can watch MY GIRL (that korean show) there..went there..first reaction, sian!!! there's a group of river valley girls who just ordered their meal only..so i sat beside their table & wait lor..anyway got 2hrs to spare..was intending to get food de..but then i just had my lunch like an hour ago...perhaps i should get it when the girls are gone & when i get to set my labtop up (: while waiting, there's really nothing to do..then suddenly darling called..

darling: where are you now?

me: at mac..was thinking of killing time there by using my labtop

darling: orh..we never go vivo ler..

me: huh? why? ( thought it's cuz' of me)

darling: no la, weiwen don't want go so i wed then go lor..

me: hmm..if you want go out with your friends or do your thing it's ok de..i can wait..

darling: no la..weiwen sending me home now..

me: hmm..then like that you want i accompany you go vivo..but you want to go home back to change?

darling: ya..

me: ok then see you later..

just left mac like that lor..luckily didn't order any food lor..haha..reached his place ler..wait downstaris..play zelda hee (: completing the quest mah..then darling came ler..he say wei..i didn't hear..thought it was someone else..then he appeared in front of me..so went up lor..he wanted to rest first before going out..so i go sleep also la..haha..so tired also..i slept at 4am the day before..tell you later why....

ended up sleep until about 830pm when darling's feeling hungry so we had our dinner..watch tv with his parents..he told his dad he going bangkok..his dad say who..he didn't want to let him know he's going with me, so he said with his friends..after that when he was outside & i was playing games, he told me his dad told him this year is not a good year to go on holiday...i was like....diao..was looking forward to it already & this has to happen..don't know real ma..hmm..then at 9pm, we play games..until 10pm went back to sleep again..about 1030pm we started talking about last morning..i cried ma..he said sorry..he didn't mean it..i told him i'm so scared la..the way he's like that...if he ever have this kind of thinking, i told him to look at that video he took when i was behaving like a kid..he laughed..then he remembered that he recorded my frustration & crying conversation with him haha..we laughed..11pm finally, he sent me home (: kissed me goodbye & off he went..*sobx*

sunday was a horrible night for me..about 11pm i sms darling ma..then he didn't reply..was thinking whether he wants to chat online or on the phone for just awhile..he didn't reply..so i called him..he didn't answer..this made me suspect him..i know it's wrong but given this kind of situatuion, i'm sure you guys will too right? told sam about it..she finds it weird too..cuz' this isn't like darling..so i called him the second time..he didn't answer too..the third & i gave up..i was watching MY GIRL was appearing offline..it was about 1230am la..so about 120am i think he was online..but he appeared offline straight..msn him didn't reply..call him again..was so frustrated..didn't know what's going on..thought i did something that made him ignore me..but i was thinking, no..i didn't..so i called & called until he picks up the call & the first thing he said was: YOU'RE IRRITATING!! omg!! how it hurts!! i didn't cared..asked him what's this about..why he's become like that..he just replied i'm irritating...feeling damn sad..i kept asking why..didn't reply..he left his cell aside & let me continue the talking..finally i broke down...cried & feeling frustrated..didn't know what to do but wanting to find out how he's feeling..was so worried..i ignored him saying that i'm irritating..cuz' i didn't cared about that anymore..i just want to know how is he..cried madly for like 1h30mins...he didn't answer so i ended the call & called again & again..he didn't pick up..until finally about 315am...he picked up..told me not to cry anymore ler..in a nice tone..( that's cuz' he has fight the devil inside him..) i told him la..if he don't want to talk or want to do his stuff, he can always tell me but i don't want him to ignore me..it's so miserable..he said sorry..hee..everything was fine ler..he asked me why i cried..i told him if i didn't cared or don't even love him, why should i get so frustrated & cry?? he said nothing..then he told me about the plans to taiwan & that if he didn't have enough cash, we go somewhere nearer..bangkok..i'm fine..then after that he disturb me..hee..laugh ler..then awhile more he went to sleep ler..hee..now that everything's alright, i'm glad!! thanks sam that you were there (: muackz!!!

darling, sorry la..i know yesterday i shouldn't do that too..like disturbing your sleep..but because i was so worried for you do you know..don't do that again alright?? you pormised me ler..!! don't break your promises ah..muackz!! i love you!!

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