i had gastrics AGAIN!! it occurred during my 5days off after my Perth flight...sigh...didn't know about it...

2days ago, i went to see a doctor...was supposed to do 952...thanks so much james that you got activated for my flight..sigh...it's so bad i tell you...i don't even have the strength to walk..the day before, i came back from 3 sectors..went to meet DD...he was with sean actually but sean left...so DD met grace...grace was telling DD how to stop sean from smsing her cuz' she need to have some peace...so DD became the middle man...i was famished...although i had cup noodles on board just now...ordered filet o fish...finished it but felt that my stomach was in pain...sigh...just as i guessed, the gastric attack came back...went to DD's place after that...he wasn't being very concerned...like giving me the sian look when i'm like that...sigh...why?? then after that when i burst into tears, only then did he asked his mum...she gave me medicated oil to apply onto my stomach while he went to make a cup of hot milo for me...i kept burping after that which was a good sign...before going home, DD's mum asked me to drink that medicine which DD gave me before when i was having gastric a long time ago...it was really a good feeling..i felt so much better after that...went home...DD said yong siang's coming over to do the psp thing so i told him when he reached home, sms or call...i was waiting despite having this stupid pain but he didn't call or sms...sigh...is it so difficult?? 

next day went to see the doctor's..omg..it's confirmed i'm having gastric...sigh...it had gotten so worse man...my medical fees cost me a bomb..it was $268...with lotsa medications plus consultation fees...i have to take this medicine which the doctor said that it helps reduce the acids in my tummy...i have lotsa acids in my tummy...plus i must not take in apple or orange juice...i can provided my gastric stops...sigh...my mum didn't even cared...i just felt so so down...why must i be diagnosed with gastric...DD didn't cared much though...yesterday i went over to his place...all he did was to sleep & ignored me...wth...i thought he will shower me with care & concern but he didn't...since he was sleeping, i slept too...mind you, on the floor...not saying that he ill treat me but i just had my lunch so he said it isn't good to lie down since i was having gastric...i must wait for 15 mins before i can sleep...after that i didn't want to disrupt his sleep so i just slept quietly on the floor...after about an hour, he was awaken by the loud noise from downstairs...then only did he wake me up to lie on his bed...we slept till dinner time...

went down to eat...i told him i helped him to order the food already...but then he didn't seem to listen...he asked me a question but i wasn't paying attention to what he was saying so i just said yes all the way...then he went to order food..when he was back, i asked him what did he ordered & told him i've already ordered what he told me to just now...he was shocked & just said something..when i apologised, he said it's ok but in an angry tone....i was like....wth...i didn't mean it right..plus i was sick...i felt bad cuz' he has to finish all the food...i kept apologising but he just said aiya, nevermind la don't say already can??? i was thinking, couldn't he just tell me in a nicer tone...sigh...after dinner, went back to his place..sigh...again, he was using his com...just ignoring me...leaving me alone...i was thinking, am i transparent...later, i just stared in the space doing nothing only then did i decide to just lay down...i was tearing...cuz' of him & myself...he only showed a little concern...sigh...nevermind then...perhaps he was just TOO TIRED..it's ok...

today, i was awakened by the rain this morning at about 245am...if i didn't remember wrongly, i slept at 140am after finishing my game...was online before...smsed tristan, he didn't replied..pmed him online, he seemed busy although his status was like free...hmm...nevermind...i thought i could go catch a movie with him but...nevermind...just nua at home lor...sheena's coming over later to do her dreamworks thing...my brother's gonna coach her...about 2 or 3pm..till then, i have nothing to do at home...did sms tristan in the morning saying that i was bored...he didn't replied...was online & checked, he wasn't online...nevermind lor...just do nothing...thought i could catch a movie & have lunch with him but...i guess i can't..i think i'll be going down to buy food...i must listen to the doctor's now...i don't want my gastric to worsen...might have another post later...ciao...