sigh...i just realised something...i don't know why but then, my hair started to fall so much....plus my giddiness...it has been like a frequent thing...sigh...till now i still have not seen a doctor yet...i'm really afraid...as i'm still not prepared for the worst...sigh...i really don't know how...

suddenly i kept thinking....thinking of how i were to regret if i've not said my piece...

to friends
thanks so much for being there for me...i really thought that i'm the lonely one...seeing you guys helping me out...not wanting me to be sad and always there to cheer me up when i'm down...i'm nothing to you guys yet you made my problem your problem...i think some has already got sick and tired of me repeating the same thing over and over again...i'm still grateful that you guys didn't mind but at the same time, constantly giving me the hope, the encouragement that i needed...

i love you guys...thank you so much...i really don't know how to repay your time...

to family
i know, it's pointless to say it here...but then, you're still kept in the dark about certain things...i just hope for this new year, you guys will have a better understanding towards me...hmm...i really don't know what to say....

to that special person
no matter what, i really don't know...thanks for not ignoring me...i seriously don't know what you're thinking...anyways, you know what i told you that time when you asked for a chance...the answer now will still be the same...whether you want it or not that's another thing..but what i can say is that..no matter how long just like that lor...hmm...if you're reading this, don't pressume that i'm having high hopes...i just set aside these...i've already met sean, told him everything...wanted to meet up to finish up the talk...but then, sms you, you didn't reply...i mean, if you wanted to meet up you would've smsed me to talk about this...if you're sincere or even care about this, you would have replied...no matter what now, it makes no difference...i've long been sick and tired of this draggy game...what i can do now is just wait lor..you want then like that, don't want then forget it lor..haha...what i can say now is i'm not putting high hopes on it...but inside me somehow, i still longed for the day...you know it...i even told you yesterday...

sigh...lots of things are running through my mind...i really don't know what to do...i need a break...really a break from everything...argh!!! sometimes i just felt that i'm so useless..why i can't settle this once and for all...now i got tangled up in this mess...perhaps it's something that i don't mind doing...just like an empty shell...i really don't know how long i can put up with this...just hope that things will change for the better...jiayou...

ps: today's like the most number of posts...haha...

song of the day

the answer - Corrinne May

always when i'm down, this song comes to my mind...enjoy!!

Corrinne May: The Answer
I believe you are the answer to
every tear I've cried
I believe that you are with me
My rising and my light
Give me strength when I am weary
Give me hope when I can't see
Through the crosses I must carry
Lord, bind my heart to thee
That when all my days are over
and all my chores are done
I may see your risen Glory
Forever where you are.

Give me strength when I am weary
Give me hope when I can't see
Through the crosses I must carry
Lord, bind my heart to thee
That when all my days are over
and all my chores are done
I may see your risen Glory
Forever where you are.

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