hmm..yesterday was kinda emo...i don't know la!! don't want to talk about it...talking about it makes me want to cry AGAIN!!

i'm falling sick!! sigh..really...i think it's all thanks to yesterday's crying =(

already i am having slight sore throat and later in the evening i had slight flu...keep sneezing...sigh...tomorrow i've got work..can't take mc..plus i've not been working due to...you know...sigh...and now, this has to happen..falling sick at this time...shits!! having headache too...

seriously, i want to thank people who has been talking to me, cheering me up listening to me when i'm so so down!!

*you guys should know who i'm talking about*

to the person who told me that went down to have supper for 45mins and was done like 20mins, i'm really very very touched!! i heard the fast footsteps when you were on the line with me and was walking like damn fast back home just to come online..and making sure that i was feeling ok, message another friend of mine to check on me and cheer me up...and also waited and chatted with me till i slept...i'm REALLY TOUCHED!! and the one that morning called me, i didn't expect you did gave me one cuz' i didn't asked you to...but you initiated it yourself =D really glad and happy la..really...=D

i don't want to mention names..it's not as if names represent anything..but being annoymous would be better =D mysterious!! cuz' you guys know who are the ones that were there for me...

i think it's like the first ever time you guys ever heard me cry ba!! so embarassing...that sucky voice of mine...lols...stupid sob sob sounds...but you guys didn't mind totally!! still say don't mention it cuz' that's what friends are for...to be there when you're down...ya here i am talking about friends and more friends...nothing about him..but i'm really thankful that god made me find them...although i know them through clubbing i really am happy that i've got such wonderful friends who shower their care and concern for me!!

i sincerely apologise to you guys for your lack of sleep...cuz' you guys all got things to do the next day while i can just slack at home and do nothing as there wasn't school!! but you guys didn't mind!! thanks!!

to you guys who are reading this:
seriously, my life has changed with you around!! i really am happy that i've found you!! i treasure the many memories we once had and if i were to breathe the last, i really didn't regret knowing you guys in the first place...it was all FATE!! god led us to this path and let us be friends =D and i'm glad we did cross each other's path...you were there through thick and thin with me...didn't blame me and was all the while there, being really patient...trying to cheer me up...i guess i should be fine for now...but THAT thing is still bothering me...i really hate myself for being like that seriously!! you finally saw the weaker side of me which was like so embarassing!! i only knew you for like less than a few months...and yet you were there for me =D

words can't express my gratitude to you!! but i really need to hang out with you again and give you ONE BIG AND TIGHT HUG!!! that's for sure!!


if you are reading this:
thanks for the breakfast and the time for accompanying me...*loves







i guess it's all about me now!! what i'm going to do right now!! i need to be strong!! i really need to!! i can't fall and crumble at times like this...it will make things worse..but how...MELISSA!! you've got to be stronger than any other day as time passes...jiayou!! ignore things which are not worth in YOUR life!! MEL, YOU CAN DO IT!!

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