i just got back from work just now...so tired...met him at yishun..he came from ang mo kio..met his friends for kboxing session ma...after meet up lor...like just accompany each other..i was like waiting at yishun...playing with my itouch...or not i'll be like damn bored liao...met liao then went over to ys's house there to have supper...i was so hungry....had the egg tarts for "dinner"..why i " it was cuz' it's not like dinner...like that full liao hee...then after that on the way back started to feel the hunger...so stop by at ys's house there lor...didn't realise that it was like 1130pm liao...if not i should've packet the food instead of sitting there to eat...cuz' he needs to wake up at 6am the next day for his camp...ate liao quickly go back...
was uploading some pictures to photobucket as i have too many pictures on my desktop which is making my lappy damn lag....argh...
alright, being random here...
i just don't know why but maybe it's because i think too much..well, i just want to say this here..too much to keep it all inside...
recently, i just felt that things were just like the way before...it's as if like we're just only friends...that's how i felt..not really much of the love thingy...hmm...perhaps it's just the way things are?? i don't know...i really don't know...no more lovey dovey like that first week...it's so...how should i put it?? like fake?? you mean it only lasts for that one week? hmm...i don't know...in fact, i don't even know what you're thinking now...sigh..am i really that useless...am i really like how i was the way before...i'm so so afraid of the past...it still haunts me..
why is it like it's so different since the day we patched..during the first week, everything was fine..just like how we were the way we used to be...then after that it all comes back to point number one...it may seem like we moved on and stuff but actually, what do we want?? what do we see in this relationship?? what is it that we both want from each other exactly?!?!?
for me, it's just plain simple..being together meaning 2 persons deeply in love with each other showering their care and concern for the other...
which means no matter how tired he/she is, they will take an effort to do something which the other party wants...
no matter how busy,
no matter how hard,
no matter how the temper is,
no matter how far the destination...
all i can say is TRY...
have you given it your best that you really are tired and couldn't make it or is it because you're just plain lazy??
the question is have you EVEN tried?
just by taking that little effort may touch he/she..
it may seem unimportant..
but to the other person ,
he/she may take it that this person is making him/her the priority...
i know what i wrote here may offend a number of people..but these are just my thoughts about it...don't take it to hard...i'm just pinning down how i felt and what i was thinking...
ask yourself this:
when was the last time you made him/her that happy?
when was the last time you cooked for him/her?
when was the last time you went the extra mile for him/her despite being that tired, that rush and that inconvenient for you..
when was the last time you actually did something so sweet that it actually touched his/her heart??
when was the last time that you didn't really mind about his/her attitude and just liked him/her the way he/she is...(as in didn't really "hiam" him/her) because loving a person doesn't mean he/she has to change anything to him/herself to fit into how the other person likes...being in love means to accept the way for how he/she is...there's no need for a change..
when was the last time you actually did something for him/her..like taking care of him/her when he/she is that sick, went down all the way to get something for him/her, doesn't needs to be asked about what he/she likes but just got it for him/her...
all these things...have they ever occured to your minds?? i'm speaking to anyone and everyone who's reading this, which includes me...have it ever ever occured to you..
is being in love/in a relationship causing a person that needs to be changed or
having frequent quarrels which you all know is so unhealthy or
being so nice and sweet towards each other like kissing each other goodbyes when they're leaving..like a simple sms or to wake up at the time he/she needs to go to work no matter how early just to tell him/her heys, please have a great day at work etc. or whispering those sweet nothings to each other or doing something together like a sports or an activity or just having sex almost everyday or not trusting each other cuz' you'll have to guess what he/she is doing as he/she didn't let you know about his/her whereabouts..this is the so called "trust" every couple is talking about...
what is trust then?? is trust something that we all take in seriously or is it just a saying...is trust something like letting each other know about their whereabouts and not saying that it's a hassle and also being truthful to each other even you know a new guy or girl..be it a hunk or a babe...or going out with this close guy/girl friend that even has a crush on you and you do feel the same way but do you still let him/her know about it or choosing to keep quiet about it...does all these questions hit a raw nerve??
sigh, what in the world is being in love and how does a relationship really works??
well, just being random...don't get offended...am just jotting down how i felt and no offense in ANY ways to ANY person...don't take it to heart...these are just words...or should i say words that rings the bell??
sigh...i have to sleep now...long long post with lotsa words...gosh, it's 0208 hours now...i need to get some sleep...just hope and keeping my fingers crossed that they won't activate me for the next 2 days...hope it stays...am really tired...and i need a break...
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