sigh, it's another boring day for me...sometimes, i do feel pathetic...about myself...i just don't know why...maybe i'll tell you about what i think & you guys think about it...
today i was supposed to meet dina at 2pm at jurong to buy her bikini...but then pay has not arrived yet...so she said she can't go or rather, she don't want to go...i expected it...but then, i still refuse to believe for i knew that tomorrow, tanning is still on...but then, after what i received from her, she didn't want to go...sigh...EXPECTED...nevermind...i had the whole day to myself this afternoon....came back from darwin at about 530am..was kinda hungry & was afraid that my gastric would act up...i went to finish my cookie crisp plus milk for breakfast...was full & went to sleep...woke up at 12 & dina's message came...blah blah blah...sigh...
i spend the whole day doing nothing but watching this japanese show, 14 sai no haha (which means 14 yr old girl going through pregnancy) it's a meaningful show although i'm only at episode 5...i did nothing..was feeling lazy too...it's always like that...whenever i'm back from a night flight & i have U/A, that whole day will be wasted just like that...cuz' i'm somewhat giving myself rest & just don't want to do anything...before that i chatted with sam over the phone & on msn...she also not free tomorrow...sigh...hidayah also not free..she's doing 638 sigh...damn!! after watching the show, i just wanted to rest...while resting (which means doing nothing) i was pondering about myself on how pathetic i was...first, daphne's incident....sigh...as a best friend, a batch mate, a good sister, i had to sour this relationship all thanks to me!! till now, i doubt she wants to talk to me...i wonder when will be the day she will...i'll just leave her alone & let it be...sigh...true friends are really hard to come by these days...best friends i do have are only sam, zer, hidayah, su boey, jeff & my bf!! sigh...the rest, nah...daph was once my true friend...a pity due to myself...sigh...everytime i want to ask someone to go tanning, go shopping, none's there...only for exceptional cases where my besties happened to have off on the same day with me, they will go out...but then, sigh...moreover, this month's roster sucks big time!!! i don't even have at least a day off on a weekend...you know, i desperately am searching for one as that's the only days i get to meet my bf...but this time round, not even a single off day on a weekend...argh...this week, fri, i'm doing 148/108 , sat sby, sun 702...what the hell la!!! keep giving me 702..can they like change it for god's sake!!! i'd rather be doing perth man!! sigh...
i just wished that i hadn't join this company!!! especially sass!!! never in my life i want to have anything to do with them once i'm out...melissa, hang on, you'll going to make it!! just another 1 1/2yrs more!! jiayou!!!
sigh...i have lesser time with my bf...if i were still in my old company, gio...i could've requested to do M shift all the way for weekends...i don't mind...sigh..but here...how to ??? life just sucks being here...pay also not in yet...damn!!! even going for a massage i'm also so lazy...sigh...i just don't know what the hell i want!!! DD!!! i need you!!! can you hear me??
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