i just came back from the hospital...visited my grandma...sigh...she's in bad shape...suddenly, i just felt that she looks so like my mom...can tell that mummy was sad la...she bought a flower & put it at the side of the bed...told grandma to look at it & touch it...so that she'll feel better...while on the way home, auntie karen was saying that the nurse told them grandma was at the third stage of don't know what cancer...sigh...at first the nurse told them that it was the first stage, now, it's like just a day later it has become the third stage...how is that possible? it's at tan tock seng hospital...grandma was at 11 floor i forgotten which ward but i know how to go there...sigh...why must this happen when i'm having a hard time myself....
the moment i saw her, i almost teared...i couldn't stand seeing my loved ones in bed (especially the hospital bed) sigh..she can only drink small packets of milk...she can't eat anything...sigh...
lives are really just so precious...i know, i do cherish everyone i have...including you...praying hard everyone around me will be safe & sound....you didn't come but it was alright...i didn't dared to break the news to an old granny here...sigh...i don't think i'll let my parents know...i'll let them find out by themselves...i mean it's meaningless to tell them la....sigh...
*prays for everything*
was happy la today...going to his place & telling him everything...how i felt & stuff...he was really nice...i won't forget what happened today....i just miss you so suddenly...
sigh..i don't know why but when daddy bought us dinner, i couldn't finish the packet of rice...i was forcing myself to finish it...sigh...what has happened to me...just what happened??? i didn't had anything all day except for just that small kueh daddy bought & milk in the morning...till just now...sigh..what has happened???
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