today's really a tiring day for me..hee...i went to school FINALLY wor..haha...wasn't that bad...last wed they did a quiz...somewhat a test la...open book...obviously i missed it..but then lucky also la..cuz' i'm sure i won't be able to pass also...haha...luckily i missed only a chapter...cuz' the class was confused when they did the quiz...so she decided not to teach but go through the paper...

after school went to meet jacer with my policy...and i signed another policy...haha...but that one don't need to pay...i use medisave to pay la...haha...

after that went back..pack my room..haha...really a mess man...i got a helper to help me weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....haha...













ok i look like a retard...after this flight, i went to st james hee...siong hor haha...

yesterday
went to ikea with gary...to get his stuff...it's been a long time since i last went..it was changed to become much more spacious liao haha...more things to see..more bedroom ideas...yeah...i also need to browse through to see what i need to get...cuz' after clearing my room, i want to get rid of my old furniture and buy newer ones...so i decided a great idea which was suggested by gary too...to give my brother the furniture since my mum's going to buy haha...all furniture looks new but just too big for my room...haha...

it was an impromptu thingy...msn chat ma...then gary said he wanted to go there...i said ok lor, me too..cuz' i wanted to get some stuff but only after i packed my room la...so just go there roughly see what i need lor...he drove over to pick me then off to ikea...went to have dinner then IKEA haha...we spent about 3hours there haha...shiok!!! after that went for supper at some hongkong restaurant at outram...not nice one lor...then went back liao...too tired also...haha...that was how my day ended yesterday..haha...

well, that's all folks, need to paint my nails...and go to sleep...sian, tomorrow not working with daph...cic was supposed to be her...guess they saw 2 batch mates working together ba, so they decided to swap...sian....what to do...

Labels: tired after a long day packing hee...

it was a draggy flight yesterday...maybe it's because of the sales that's affecting the journey of the flight..was really looking forward to st james...hee...i wanted to dance and just let everything go away...a form of distressing...it was a blast..

after flight, i went to get changed immediately...hoping that the midnight charge wasn't that bad...ended up i was so lucky..wasn't that expensive but still expensive la...went to buy some food for later...but ended up we didn't eat it...lols...off to st james where i met my cousins...

when i was there, told gary and he and his friend got us in for free hee...that saves the entrance fee...heh heh...thanks gary =D the first thing to do is to find a locker for my bag lor...having bringing such a big bag was already that bad...sigh...i didn't want to waste time going back as i would have to end up paying additional cab fare...but it's ok la...gary didn't know where there's more lockers...so i told him we go dragonfly and see lor...when i'm back then let him know ba...ended up dragonfly took us a long time to get in...peiling jie decided to bring us to another club...i didn't know which club it was la...so ended up just went in lor...got some many lockers there hee...so i chose one and popped my bag in...they went to the ladies and then stayed at the club...they played oldies ba...during their days la...haha...i don't really like it...but still we had fun there..with the PRCs..lols...peiling jie couldn't take it haha...it was just so funny la...then the live band...not bad...but the lady singing was like.......lols...powerful voice but too screeching la...there were also people dancing hip hop...nice la...hee..after that we decided to leave...i was getting kinda bored..went to sit outside and then grab a bite...i was just too hungry...gastric acting up again...sigh...then after that went to powerhouse...guess what?? full house lor..sian...waited outside for like 10mins before we can get in...went in to find gary at the old place...while squeezing through, saw siti and the rest...chatted awhile then i saw gary...and mr john lols...they weren't wearing their office wear but instead casual lor...haha...first time see them in casual wear heh heh...john look so different la...lols...then went the corner...cousins sat there...haha...never really danced much la except for the chorus part...heh heh...cuz' they were saying they too old liao...diao lor...haha...but still have fun la...haha..

went to find gary and siti la...dance a bit here and there then when i wanted to go over to cousin's side, mr john stopped me...so bad lor...but he like high liao lols...don't know what's wrong la...lols...gary too..lols...i was going here and there la basically...at the last bit when gary smsed to ask where i was, went over to find him...danced a little then went home liao...cuz' they were playing trance...like a bit not in the mood to dance la...r&b stopped sobx...but a few songs of r&b here and there lor...after that somebody got into a fight..don't know what's wrong la...3 bouncers have to come in...i got hit lor...sian...gary just pushed me aside...i got pushed and hit...pain la...diao...dance then dance lor...why fight and push each other...diao...come here is to have fun ma...it was like 430 liao...cousin msged me...wanted to leave but then the lighting was making me giddy...stood there awhile before squeezing my way out lor...went to the hot dog stand to look for my cousins...then we went home...hee...had lotsa fun although time was so short la...but ultimately, i really must thank my cousins for joining me...seriously, i didn't spend much except for cab and that hot dog bread hee...

really am touched for them to always be there for me...holidaying, my birthday and now even club...although the powerhouse wasn't the place they wanted to be but they just sat there, enjoy the music, didn't complain at all...it was like i'm the only one enjoying it lor..felt so bad..but seriously, they're really nice to just be there for me...=D

thanks cuzzies!!! you girls are always the best =D muackz!!! i love you!!!

today standby lor..won't get called up la...tomorrow school again...i promised myself that i'll be going...yeah so i will...am going to do my nails soon...pay's in hee...

Labels: being happy is the most wonderful thing to do =D

what a flight today...goodness...but overall it's alright..CIC was really bad man...early morning already like that...like somewhat we're at wrong like that..but overall, ok la...just the first sector cuz' all 3 of us were thinking how to communicate with CIC man...report to CIC le, no acknowledgement de...sob..after that CIC resting..cuz' not feeling well...perhaps that's the reason why CIC like not in the mood to chat or what ba...nevermind lor...second sector not so bad la..still got chat here and there...

poor jacky la...he got into a minor accident...due to the taxi driver lor..when he was almost exiting to the other lane, he moved so slowly that the car speeding from behind just crashed onto the taxi lor...luckily jacky's fine la...just abit of bruise on his hand..other than that alright...he thought CIC was angry due to him being late...but not his fault plus he had called logistics what...

after flight, it was so nice of julie and her friend...hee...both of them accompanied me to get the uniform at kallang...like finally lor that i had gotten the stupid uniform after so long...lols...hope that 4 pieces can last me ba...

tomorrow another flight again...sian...4sectors...argh...hopefully ok ok la huh...plus on sat need to do 952...shit lor..alrights, need to have my beauty sleep...nights!!

Labels: need to move on

now i know the reason why the mrt was jammed yesterday while on my way to work...my dad's temple friend's mum jumped...sigh...it was so sad man...she's such a nice lady...sigh...plus i was like cursing la...which idiot jump mrt...omg man..it's someone that i knew..i didn't know things will turn out to be like that...due to a quarrel with her son, she did this...sigh...life's really unpredictable..at times like this, choose not to end your life like that...it's really that bad...you should end your life gracefully...like telling yourself, wow, i did something meaningful in my life and now god has come to take me away...so i'm letting go...something like that...not that i want to die now...there are so many things to do better than to end it that way...

sigh..after talking about this, i realised, who am i to talk about others...i'm not even fit to say about people..i, myself have been avoiding the reality...kept runnning away from it...refusing to face the fact that even how i run away from it, there's no end to it...i'll still end up with the problem and not solve it...sigh..ACCOUNTING...it is really challenging...i can't really understand...and i am avoiding this module...seriously..i didn't went to school today...stupid me...AGAIN LOR...why am i avoiding..what am i really afraid of...sigh...can i just like wake up and move on...and not being like a tortoise hiding in a shell...shit man...sigh...stupid lor...where has the never-give-up spirit of melissa gone to?? argh...perhaps i just need to be alone here to push myself up ba...jiayou ba melissa...i have to go through this...i remembered what gary had said...everyone needs to go through lotsa setbacks..the path ahead isn't always smooth..if it is, then how do people learn and become stronger?? you need to fall and feel the pain, only then you will learn..just like learning how to ride the bicycle...yeah gary, i am trying...i'll have to do it all over again...since now, i only missed the 4th lesson plus the third lesson on monday, i told myself, i can't be a tortoise forever..i need to wake up now...jiayou...

i wished that life just can be simpler...but alas, it can't...well, what i have to do now is to improve myself and keep moving on girl...nobody can help themselves unless "I" help myself...

even though i didn't attend classes but i did my revision at home...really...i am just slow in all these...especially things to do with maths..if i can, i'll push myself..the next 2 other modules are also a hurdle to me...i have to get through this hurdle!!! jiayou...

sigh..too much stress now that my giddy spells and head spins are HAUNTING me again...even GASTRIC is coming back...nevermind, i know i can find my way out of these hurdle..i can do it!!!

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i didn't really wanted to miss school today...in fact, i'm finding excuses for myself...sigh...stupid me...i don't know why...i'm avoiding accounts...why?? i just can't seem to understand...i got help from andy that day...thanks...he's a banker so practically he's dealing with these all day...i am a real slow person...really...i can't seem to catch up...i wanted to do well...i know i can...i believe i can do it...if i can't even lead myself up, who's going to?? sigh...i just felt so down when days to school are coming...

what bullshit have i been telling myself...i told myself that i can succeed in life...make it in life...by then, i'll be earning big bucks, driving a car and having a stable job at the age of 24 or even 25 or even younger...but can i?? am i just going to be stuck here and never succeed?? indeed i LOVE flying but am i just going to be stuck here forever?? i need to be free...

my parents especially my mum...sigh...why does she nag?? it's because i'm giving her problems? is that the reason?? i also wished to do well, not to make her angry, be a better daughter...but i just can't understand why i can't do it!!!

i know people may tell me...it's up to me to think...if i think otherwise, of course it'll be that way...how to be SUCCESSFUL in life...sigh...and i really not up to it?? i've promised myself that i'll succeed here and not to be a loser...sigh...

tell me, am i someone that refuses to accept what people says...always rebuking what people tells me?? am i?? i am puzzled to this...am i also a petty person..am i someone that is so difficult?? tell me...

i just want someone here to give me the attention i need, the love i need, the care and concern...but did any of these fit?? NO!! argh...f*** with everything...i'm just so tired...put the blame on me alright?? BLAME EVERY F***ING THING ON ME!! IT'S ALL MY F***ING FAULT...HAPPY?? FAMILY ALSO LIKE THAT, HE ALSO LIKE THAT...WHO CAN REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT THE F***ING HELL I'M GOING THROUGH!?!?!?!?!?

Labels: SHIT YOU

hey people...again, i've not been blogging...nothing much anyways..just a few pictures..shall update tomorrow ba =)

Labels: update tomorrow