Beautiful Lesson!!!!!!!!



The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21. Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US .
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of Chemo to end.





In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.





An unusual accessory at the wedding was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.
The other couple in the picture is Nick's parents. Excited to see there son marrying his high school sweetheart.




Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube, listening a song from her husband and friends


At the reception, Katie had to take a few rest breaks. The pain wouldn't allow her to stand up for long periods





Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts. We should stop making our lives complicated.


Life is short ...
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

i felt that this was rather meaningful..one of the few emails a friend had sent me..hmm...great story & very admirable..i don't think anyone would be as brave like her to do such things...i believed she's the most happiest girl on her wedding day of her life...

this morning, i woke up liao...but then i went back to sleep again haha..after that i got awakened by my mum when she just got back from temple...they went to rest la...i went to relax lor..after that changed and daddy drove us to AMK...cuz' we thought that the buffet over there was opened..but when we reached, it was kinda late..so we have to wait for dinner...didn't think of asking so ya just went to amk to kill some time till 5pm...went back to the same place...the person said that they only open at 6pm...sian la...so we head to the one near the science centre de lor...it was opened la!!! pay lor...110+ ba...for 4 persons...i pay la of course...haha..it's worth it just only for the deserts!! the rest cannot make it la...not really nice...i only took the black herbal soup...that's all...stayed there for about 2 hours..then went back lor...couldn't finish so much also la...here i am blogging lols..heard some bad news from DD...regards to the movie yesterday...about his friend...sigh...*prays*

yesterday was a blast...

in the morning, woke up that early to see the doctor...wasn't feeling well the past few days due to my giddiness..i finally found out what happened yesterday...doctor said that i have a blocked nose..when i'm perfectly normal...he asked whether if i had flu the past few days...i replied i didn't..then i recalled 3days back when we quarrelled and i started crying and stuff, i thought i was going to catch the flu bug...indeed, i was having flu after i got back..doctor mentioned that i have a blocked nose just that this has been on going and that i did not realise...and the giddiness was caused due to the blockage of nose and the pipe that led through the ears..that's why sometimes when i have giddy spells, that happens..the nose passage is being blocked due to flying la...the cabin is very dry and that causes my nose to be sensitive when time passes...inflamation he called it...sigh...i didn't know it was so worse...i thought it's just minor la...=( but luckily i found out earlier...DD asked me to see the doctor..if not i don't think i would just to save up...plus i really didn't want to get an MC...

yeah, after the doctor's i went to get breakfast for mummy and my brother...headed home and bathed...cabbed down to suntec..saw a red ferrari (omg!!) watched transformers haha..nice...

previously, we watched drag me to hell..nice show..sometime back la...never offend those gypsy man..lols..

he got the tickets at $2..it was this welfare thingy that allows this...haha...inclusive of drinks and snacks...haha..it's a deal..the show was exiciting...funny at the starting part...kinda touching..DD commented on how great i looked...it was the first time too that i wore something like that going out with him...i was so happy la...hee..hmm...had so much fun these few days...haha..alright man, time to take my medication!!! great day today too =D

Labels: happy day today

i didn't had school that wed..was really good as i can have more rest...felt so bad that i didn't attend school on mon...i did 952 ma..was really tired...how can they plan us in such a way...i think they are making use of the time la...smart people...anyways, what a day today man...this junior S think she what eh...wth la...do you know it is rude to talk when people are talking..i was having a conversation, didn't even say sorry and just cut in...then nevermind, continue chatting despite my existence and wanting to finish up my talk...boarding, tell me to do things...nevermind, i was thinking it's just her being herself..so i let it be...after take off, everything ok...then the best part trash not much collection, toilets so so only...i think mostly i do de la...by rights, take your own initiative by moving to the front la instead of always me opting to standby in the FWD galley...diao...i mean i really don't mind..but i have things to do at the AFT lor and the AFT galley is in my charge...if anything happens, who's going to answer? you?? wth la...during transit in jakarta, she should just quickly do her security sweep, report and start collecting trash..no la, i think she did it on purpose so that she doesn't need to do AIC cuz' got us what...wth la...what kind of thinking is this..as if you're the senior here...no respect...then into SIN, same thing happens...i bth just shouted across and say don't talk at the front do AIC first done liao you can do anything...she showed me the infant seatbelt...please man, you see the seatbelt, take for CIC and just put it in the FWD or usually we hang at the seat...CIC will take de what...our normal procedures ma..wth..then nevermind, come to the back can still tell me oh, i help her retrieve the infant belt..i told her off lor..in a nice way la...then after that she did AIC la...like machiam not happy...heck la...as long as she do her work...talk and talk only...still can tell me that other seniors say i'm like her...wtf!!!! she's far from me lor..at least when i talk i do work, she doesn't!!! argh!! angry!!

after flight meet DD..so nice of him to buy dinner for me =D damn hungry man...mummy smsed me saying that she didn't see me for days...i thought she cared ended up, when she got home, all she did was nag cuz' of my room...i know it's really messy la..but can you just get off my back...i need to rest also lor...damn tired de lei...i'm not doing ground job...i promise after my last module i'll just throw whatever books that's here...making it spick and span ok?? make sure you won't nag...i saw sandy's room la..damn organised can!!! how i wish i can take a look at her room..she was taking some pictures ma...posted on blog, so i happen to see her room in one of the pictures...shit la, it's so organised...i think i better be like her...

sigh, come to think about work, why do those idiots love spreading rumors which are so not true!!! fuck them man!!! shit you!! argh!! can't you guys just mind your own bloodly business...nobody asks you to poke into ours...argh!!! sick and tired of work man!!! pay is already so miserable...just make my life easier by stopping all these nonsense can!!! pain in the ass man!!! argh!!!!

i too need to cut down on a lot of things and lead a healthy lifestyle!!
things to do!!!
1) stop clubbing (am trying to & am doing it)
2) go to gym and exercise
3) eat breakfast
4) DRINK MORE WATER (i realised i haven't been drinking water..that's why outbreaks are lurking on me!!)
5) do my own facial
6) cut down on spending too
7) pack my room AGAIN!!!
8) try to cut down on cup noodles (losing lotsa hair now)
9) get my driving license
10) MOST IMPORTANTLY!!!
after my bond, i'm going to get a good paying job of 3.5-4K and buy a car!! support my family!!


note to self
melissa, jiayou, you can do it!!! prove people things within the best of your abilities!! i believe i can and yes i can!!!


on my way home, i saw this bunch of kids playing...they were just so cute...was feeling down at DD's place..cuz' yea, due to some personal reasons we started quarreling again!!! kids can really make my day...even though i find their crying annoying just their smile, it has already made your day..it somehow warmed your heart and all your sorrows are drown by that smile...it's really amazing!!! don't know if you guys experience it before?? hee...

alright, i need to sleep..damn shag...am feeling sick soon..i know...don't know to take mc or not...jiayou...we shall see...

Labels: i simply love kids

yesterday, many things happened...it made me realise who are my REAL FRIENDS!!!

seriously what does FRIENDS define...is it the definition of being used by another or is it really pure friends??

i've realised this important point in life....i was really glad that DD actually talked to me about it & i finally woke up...i started with what happened between "that clique"...then DD talked some sense into me...it's like god has sent an angel there for me telling me the right thing to do & to stop being NAIVE!!! finally i've woken up..being so happy that i didn't left him...thanks DD!!!

had a chat with my dear SISTAS!!!
i apologised to them...was really sorry & i really felt like a bitch la...didn't spend time with them & didn't even bother to call or ask how are they...sigh..i'm like a bitch la...initially i thought they will be mad at me for being like that..but no...i was really glad that they're really my TRUE FRIENDS..am so so happy that i've met friends like this..seriously!!! dex & san, no matter what next time, just tell me straight into my face...cuz' true friends doesn't lie...they're not afraid to tell the truth...so in any case i did something wrong or if i'm blinded by just that kinda people, PLEASE open my eyes for me...you guys can see the blind spot of mine whereas i can't & will be blinded...thank god i still have you guys & you guys didn't left me...i felt so relieved...but seriously when i'm out clubbing & stuff, i was really thinking about you two...really hope that you guys were there...=( all these has really ruined my life...but i'm glad that this is over..i just take it like a dream whether it's me that THEY enjoyed using or be it the SWEET TALKING...i don't mind...anyways, throughout my entire life of 21 years, i'm always being used by people...perhaps i'm gullible ba & i'm naive that's why people find me usable...but it's ok...blame it on the poor judgement i have on people...but god was kind enough to deliver two WONDERFUL friends & my SOUL MATE to help me go through this ordeal...am really glad they were there for me...*loves* thanks & sorry that i've been somewhat "MIA-ing" really sorry guys!!!
& if you guys are reading this, i'm terribly sorry...thanks for your forgiveness & still consider me as a part of the SISTAS clique =) love you all!!!

DD
thanks so much for being SO patient with me....i didn't really bothered to talk much about you in here cuz' i thought you were damn irritating, controlling my freedom & not letting me have it...but come to think of it, i felt really so bad la...am so f***ing SELFISH..i only cared about myself...wanting to have fun, neglected your presence, didn't want your accompany & felt bored just being with you...but then, just YESTERDAY, i didn't realise that i really had a wonderful SOUL MATE right by my side all this while...i didn't know that you've been putting up with my nonsense for about 1 1/2 months...you're really very patient...thanks so much DD!! you really understood me well..without your words which really knock some sense into me, i think i wouldn't be caring about my SISTAS's presence ba..i will still be enjoying & getting used by people....sigh...thanks a lot...the times we had, are really wonderful...i just hoped that time pass so slowly...suddenly, i miss you so so much...really!!!

finally i'm out of this ordeal...i just hope god can bless me with wonderful people around...i ever read this somewhere & it really is true

you don't need many friends but a few best friends that will really be best friends FOREVER..

it's indeed true!! hmm...felt so guilty but am thankful that this ended...sometimes in life, you really don't get what you wanted...but never mind...hee...

guess what, something bad befall onto those people...i don't know whether i'm thinking too much or what..but then, people who ill treats me or make use of me won't have a good ending...something bad will definitely befall them...I'M SERIOUS...this is not the first incident le..many of such occurrences happened before...it can't be just pure coincidences...wahaha...what i believed, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!!! wahahaa....
*i know i'm bad laughing at people who had something bad befall on them but go think about it, who's going to pity me when they make use of me...right? ;p haha..

Labels: glad i realised this sooner =D

Interesting quote from the movie 'Why did I get married?'
In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.
But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT
But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.
Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. 'Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is not'

Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 20%. Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature.

You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says: 'I broke my arm yesterday, Hahahaha . . ..'

Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt Or because your husband is the quiet type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.

But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.

Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!

That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100% that represents all the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have weathered together. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple. The many adjustments you have made to love the other. The wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.

But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you already have.

But I'm not just talking about marriage.

I'm talking about life!

About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.

Are you like the economy airline passenger that perennially peeks through the door of the first class cabin, obsessed with what he's missing? 'They have got more leg room! Oh my, their food is served in porcelain! Wow, their seats recline at an 80% angle and they've got personal videos!'

I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire trip! Don't live your life like that. Forget about what the world says is first class. Do you know that there are many first class passengers who are miserable in first class -- because they are not riding in a private Lear Jet?

The main message???

If you start appreciating what you have right now, wherever you are, you are first class!

Labels: pondering

today wasn't a great day for me...apart from being happy going to kak nonie's place to fix my nails, i wasn't happy at all...especially the first part of the day...sigh...i really don't know what i want la...sigh...am so so so disappointed with myself...not only YOU...me too do not understand myself...i really don't know what i want...perhaps i want to just have fun...but then again, how long can you endure all this shit...it's been shit for like the past month i guess or even longer...so i really don't know how long this will last...sigh...there's a limit to everyone's patience, i guess your time is almost up too...saw you flared up in the lift...was damn freaking afraid...i don't like it..was shivering like mad...for a moment, i thought i was with some mad guy...ended up, i decided to just go to any floor that will just cool me off to ease my shockness...you were smart, ran up all the way...which was really fast...i thought you took the lift...sigh...you found me...and you started again....

what can i do?? it was all my fault..it started all because of me...i couldn't blame you...i broke a promise...sigh..

i shall continue my story till i have the time to blog...as i got activated for a flight tomorrow at 455am reporting...sigh...if only they activated me at an earlier time...sigh...

went out with billy and gang last night after my flight...to this place at emerald hill...one of the pubs inside..it's damn nice...upload the pictures when i have the time...also after that, i got so enthusiastic about singing that fang & me decided to go to kbox at clementi...had lotsa fun...i specially love "sha gua" by wen lan...the mtv...really made fang & me cried...i got reminded of the past...took some pictures having crazy time lols...


alright then..good night people..

Labels: so disappointed in myself

woots, today i've decided FINALLY not to be lazy and go to school...guess what?? as usual, i was late la...reached at 10am..but nevermind..wanted to take some notes cuz' i saw haslina's paper...she said it wasn't notes but some reference for test later...

me: oei don't lie la
haslina: serious..never lie
me: serious ah? then why are you laughing?? must be lying lor..
haslina: serious la!!!
me: (turning over to look at tara) ya, later got test..

shit lor, never study..never came for the past 3 lessons..and this was what i get...TEST!!! wth la...omg...was panicking....but luckily i came if not i doubt i'll be getting extra marks from...so took the test without even studying, just PURE knowledge on my own...if it's those short answer questions maybe can anyhow talk through but not all lor..some questions must study de..cuz' it's asking about terms...shit, till now, i know nuts about it..i think i need revision...need to get a HD in this module..shall work hard man...unlike my previous module, although PASS but then i felt i could've done better...cuz' i didn't attend lessons...yeah man, i can blame nobody but my own...

now damn good la, i never club for 1 whole week liao...been accompanying him as i promised...yea but then, it doesn't seem reciprocal..why i said so was probably cuz' when he did have the time, i was out with friends, went clubbing etc. so now, i can't complain or be sad too...i must understand his situation also..just like how i was when out with my friends...how i want others to treat me, i must first fulfill it before saying it...yeah, so i can't say or do anything but 3 words for myself: I DESERVE IT!! lols...

hmm..been doing nothing the whole day 2day..was watching BOYS OVER FLOWERS!!! woots!! i've finally finished the whole episode man...if you guys want the link, let me know...PM me in msn or tag me..it's with english subs..damn good lor...lols..i think give you whole day stay at home, you also can watch lols...oh yeah and i did my nose mask and face mask..while watching halfway waiting for it to get downloaded would be faster hee =D) finally wed's coming...(san ah san) lols...after the show, i decided to try my french twisting again...tried, but it wasn't as good as last night's sobx...cuz the back of my hair doesn't stand properly to make that luohan lols...hopefully tomorrow's hair will be good man..*prays*




















hmm...i don't know why but i've always got this kinda feeling that work is getting so much boring but cuz' of these.....




it made my working life was so much livelier...cam-whoring onboard and taking sceneries that i love...yeah man...this was taken while on our way to guangzhou in the morning on sunday =D although it was a shitty flight but sales not bad la...haha..hmm...tomorrow's another long day...but nevermind..no work no $$$...i shall take it that it's all those that's making me a little better in work...thinking of work makes me spend so little time with family, YOU and my friends...sigh...that 1 week of leave wasn't enough too...=(
jiayou MEL, it's another 11mths to go...after that...FREEDOM!!! woots!! lols...


i went to do my nails at kak nonie's...last week i think...nice lor...with fang also..i love hers...it was really sweet...mine's something similar to my past nails but this is so much nicer la...lols...am loving it...but so sad, my thumb got cracked so ended up can't get it done till wed...sobx...so i have to faec red nails for like a few days...probably a week...BORING!!!

Labels: just wish for my FREEDOM