i am really tired la!! damn roster!! i really don't know how they plan it man!! argh!!! it's really tiring especially for me who's like staying so freaking far!!!
i'm going to whine again!!
i just want to!!! need to vent it all out!!!
argh!!!
did 326/454..good flight with super good crew
(ALL SENIORS!!) superb!! samuel was on board with his friends on 454 to have his lan gaming competition...jiayou jiayou!! if he wins, it's like a few thousand bucks...what a great way to earn hard core cash!! just by playing some games and you can earn it so easily...sighs...unlike my scope of job...plus for him, it's something that he LOVES to do man!! argh!!! well, he gets to travel too...sigh...why am i not so talented in games!! else i can succeed wahahaha...i should've taken a
DIPLOMA in gaming blah blah blah...it'll help totally man!!
well back to the story..
after flight, went for this foot bath...it was worth like $5 bucks!! can you believe it?? it was so relaxing..i almost doze off the chair!! i think i'll go for a foot massage sometime soon...there's this gooey thing that will be formed when your feet are moved in that foot tub...then it will be formed like a mould and somewhat hug onto both your feet...it's great man i tell you...when the second step for the foot bath came, the lady just added another sachet of powder...the mould was then turned into liquid...just like magic!! lols...after that i thought i can just go find DD la...it's relaxing..i got a drink to just accompany the rest there but then we ended up talking shit la...i was wasting time la...cuz' it was kinda early ma..DD will be like going out about 6pm..so i was thinking, at that time it was 3pm...shouldn't be a problem to stay for awhile..then it dragged...argh!! i waited for my other senior who stayed near me la...cuz' she wanted me to accompany her back home too since we're staying kinda near...didn't expect it to be late!! very late!! like at 515pm then
THEY all decided to leave!!! argh...ended up i can't meet DD
=(((( saddddddddd!!!!!!!!
sigh...
HERE COME THE BEST PART, while at yishun, my brother smsed me to say that dinner wasn't bought for me..i was like...wth...if i knew, i'd have dinner with my colleagues man!! shits!! wasted man...what to do...went back, bathe, changed and went down to get chicken rice and roti prata!!! just so
FREAKING hungry man!!i hecked la..eat lor...hungry ma..
now here i am whining and blogging...argh!!!
my feet aches...and plus somewhere near my calf and shin area, the leg just seem to not function well la...i don't know!! it can just suddenly be pain...and it's those kinda piercing pain..i don't know what's wrong with me..plus my back, it's killing me nowadays!! i don't know is it due to my backbone problem again since my last checkup in secondary school..sigh...what has totally happened to me?? i'm on the verge of breaking down...as in my body...
PHYSICALLY!!! how how how!! help mmeeeeee....
tomorrow it's a 716..stupid flight man..although i love perth flights but then, another perth!! plus it's like straight after 2 morning flights!! how tiring man!! argh!!! nevermind...whine and whine, that's what i can do..argh!! shits!!
after that i'm off!! i think i shall go to jurong point on sun..to really do a foot massage and back massage..else my body's telling me to stop...it's failing me now and then..i don't know why...at this age??? it's terrible...not as if i'm like 40..i'm only 21...how can i??? sigh..sigh sigh....
28th july '09felt bad..it was suppose to be our day out together...DD came back from his second night shift...i was waiting at home since 10am...cuz' i'm really afraid that i'll fall asleep...i didn't want to meet him straight cuz' i know he's tired especially after night shift...he's always tired...i can understand that..cuz' after my night flights, i'm really exhausted..so ya, i know...
i didn't know that my temper was really really bad!!! perhaps it was due to lack of sleep the night before...cuz' i was having the usual insomnia...just that few days...sigh...so i got really cranky and fucked DD upside down lor..i gave him a lashing la!! i'm like crazy!!! argh!!! scolded him and got angry and agitated for no freaking reason...i was so so unreasonable man!! i didn't know why...temper just shot up to the max....i said some nasty things to him...
the previous times when i wasn't there to accompany him, he forgave me...and i was like literally PS-ing him all by himself...like fuck la!! i was so bad i know...and the best part was i didn't bother...just want to have fun!! it's been umpteen times la..but he's still patient and let me go by my way...just want me to be happy and enjoy the time i had...even though he's sad and lonely...but me???? a bitch!!! just only that day...that one freaking day and i'm mad at him like as if he did something wrong like that...sigh..i really don't know what's wrong with me these days la!! argh!!!
*I'M SO SORRY DD SO SO SORRY!!!*
recently, i don't think i'm myself boy!!! i don't know what the hell is wrong with me...sigh...tired, short tempered, gets frustrated easily and my back and feet is giving me problems..what happened melissa??
next week school's starting..i don't know to rejoice or to moan again...although it's the last module, i promised myself to attend every single lesson and pay full attention!!! but sometimes, i just don't feel like going to school, thinking of how long the journey is to and fro and i can spend the whole OFF day staying at home to rest...sigh..it makes me just don't feel like crawling to school...i shall preserve and try!! i can do it!! last module!! do it well!! alright..i think i'll go play some mini games on my ds and let off some steam!! then i'll sleep!!
ciao everyone!! i'm sorry for the crude language used..just too tired and can't be bothered!! =((((((((
ps: i don't know what's wrong with blogger!! the template with the colours and uploading of pictures are gone!! i can't seem to upload pictures!! damn!!!
bye bye July, welcome August!!
using my brother's com to upload my post...
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