just so tired man..got called up for sby yesterday...did 952..came back this morning...damn tired..i really can't stand liao..reported sick...when on flight yesterday, too giddy, push cart also got problem...sigh....when i got back just reported sick for 638 la..siao 1..sats say that i can still do 638 today..i can't...too much pain le...
too many things happened too..i really am at a loss to what to do man...sigh..first is my sistas la..sigh..just hope they're fine...
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darlings, you guys are going to be fine...no matter what i'll support you alright!! just like how you supported me the other time =)
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then the big quarrel i had with D...sigh...i know, people might say i'm, in the wrong..yea, i did apologised for my mistakes...why can't he just accept it & forget it..i'm like...speechless when i knew i was saying something which wasn't supposed to be said...sigh...i just don't know what i'm doing then...maybe it's been so long since we quarrelled & i'm itching for one...
what the fuck is my problem??
i don't know too...too many things on my mind...i'm just so worried for my sistas...really...this is like the ever first time i've been so worried for my sistas man...like i said before, i don't have much friends..i do have many friends but friends as in the kind that go through thick & thin with me together....i've lots of "hi" "bye" friends...but true friends, nah..only after the day that my sistas helped me got over that incident...i mean as a close friend, if something happened to your close friend, are you going to sit there & do nothing about it? no right?? that's why..they helped me before...i can't sit around & do nothing...
so during that time things had happened, i was in sean's car...waiting for D...at that time i ended school..i didn't know where to go as D was with sean & sista was at wild wild wet..she's having fun what, can't answer her phone de ma..so i called D..he said to meet him at eunos..i'm fine la...then i was like waiting for so damn long but it's ok, sista no 2 was on the line with me..at least i'm occupied with something & time pass fast...when i smsed D to ask him where he was, he said he will reach there at 615 when the time was like 535..wtf..if i had known, i wouldn't have met him there...waste my time...i'd rather meet him at his place...plans were like this...meet him, go his place, have dinner...i wasn't hungry when i called him to let him know that i've reached...but the waiting made me got so hungry you see...when i'm idling, i'll get hungry...that's me..so after that he came...i was on the line with sista...she told me that she's gonna lose her job...i told her not to worry...then after that, D somewhat made fun of my conversation with her...i remembered clearly that i heard what he had said...he said that i was a busybody...that was why i threw my bag at him...was so damn pissed..after the we hung up, i'm already so pissed by what that idiot had done to my sista...i got so mad that i shouted at him..yea, i admited that i sweared vulgarities at him but that was not meant as an insult to him..i sweared that just for the sake of swearing & not meaning anything...he took it serious...i scolded him about him calling me a busybody...& i just blabbered lots to him..that was because i'm damn angry..when i'm angry, i don't even know what i'm saying...when sean drove us to my place, i got down & hailed the cab..sista asked me to..i wanted to take train cuz' i'm damn broke...sista said she will pay the cab (ended up she never la..i also ps what ask from her) somewhat quarrel cuz' of her...went to wild wild wet find her...told her what happened...they saw me so mad...face really black like charcoal..i told them when i'm angry i'm like that...i wanted to bash up a person lor....they told me to relax..after that met up with ash, amelia (ash's gf) & ruikun then go pasta eat..i really siao when i was there...cuz' that's me when i'm down...sigh...i'm just like somewhat distracting myself...i don't want people to see my anger let alone my tears...sigh...after that, i guessed i had too much tobasco that my stomach turned on me...when i was about to reach home, it got so bad that i couldn't even stand...called D, he off his phone...got grace to help me..was crying like mad...it's too painful..i smsed him...he on his phone after that..didn't replied...i got this torture for like an hour before D came...he helped me up...when i crouched it was better but when i stood up, it got worse...sigh...i supposed it was due to gastric juices & tobasco that me feel like i'm in hell...
to D
i'm so sorry that i sweared at you..i didn't mean it...it wasn't meant for you...i sweared for the sake of swearing...been feeling down lately D...i'm so sorry...sigh...i don't know what's wrong with me...i do hope that things will change for the better...sorry D...i didn't mean it..i'm so sorry..i love you!!!
more pictures coming up soon...wait for the next post..
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