can't i just be what i want...what is it that i've done wrong? contacting only s...i never talked about you to him...for the rest..they talked to me...they need help from me...are you trying to say that i should just ignore...

all the hurtful things...i just don't understand why...why are you telling me all these...then what about....why did you still bother whether it comes or not...why did you still want to do the pillow thing...why? the answer is PLAIN SIMPLE!!!! even an idiot will know...

don't like to see my face, don't like my personality, don't want me to contact all of your friends, don't like the way i talk to you or anybody, forcing yourself to be friends with me??? even though your funeral i'd better not attend cuz' you just don't want to see me...wtf!??!?!!?!?!??

if you want to say such things...go on and on...i don't feel anything...this is nothing compared to what you've done!!!! i'm not angry but just confused and thinking...are you like depriving me...are you threatening me...how can you do this to a person...after that msn chat...you changed just so suddenly...i don't know why...you may have your reasons...

so people...anything to do with * please...you know what you should do...i shall not contact you too...one day if you sms me or call me or msn me i don't reply...you all know what's the reason...please don't get me into trouble!!! AND!!! PLEASE, OPEN YOUR EYES BIG!!! DON'T EVEN READ MY BLOG!!! THIS HAS NOTHING GOT TO DO WITH YOU ANYMORE...i think it's all your friends that's reading my blog lor...please...what is wrong having to pin down my own thoughts and feelings...are you even depriving me of that...i'm already in this state ler....weak like don't know what...for no reason keep vomitting...no reason keep having head spins...YOU THINK I LOVE IT?!?!?!!?!?

I KNOW YOU WILL SAY THIS IS WHAT I DESERVE!!! FINE THEN BE IT...IT'S ALL JUST MY DESSERTS...THIS IS THE PUNISHMENT THAT I SHOULD DESERVE!!! YOU HATE ME THEN FINE!!!!

argh...just want to vent it all out...you think it's good feeling like that...f***!!!!

AND F*** AFTER ALL THESE...I MADE MYSELF MORE MISERABLE..I SUFFER MORE...I GOT MY GIDDY SPELLS BACK...YOU THINK I ASKED FOR IT!!! WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO!!! I DIE LIAO YOU HAPPY IS IT!!! IF YOU REALLY WANT THAT TO HAPPEN I CAN REALLY JUMP OFF THE BUILDING BUT I MAKE SURE I JUMP AT YOUR BLOCK!!! MAKE YOU KNOW...MAKE YOU SUFFER FOR HOW I SUFFERED...YOU LIKE IT AYE???

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