came back from my 4sectors...omg!! damn tiring man...woke up like 4 in the morning to get prepared...left house like 545am...it was really so early lor..i didn't want to trouble dad to fetch me to work else, mummy & him will have to wake up extra early when they could be sleeping...arrived at changi airport station at like 730am? haha..very early la...reporting was at 750am...wa i think next time i would choose this 4 sectors instead...haha...not bad not bad...

224 was like so little people la...only 20 pax lei...omg...we really did nothing lor...damn sian...coming back into SIN also like that...but not that bad la...about 38? haah...can't remember...then we went to "shop" at BT since 104 was like 1245pm...we had like an hour of transit...sigh...then we went to bookshop lols...i bought a book...it's called


haha...just wanted to buy it lor...thought for it for very long...then ended up decided to buy...i don't think i made the wrong move ba..to improve..i need self-help book for now...then back to work...board pax fast...cuz' we had to change aircraft ma...sian...so mafan one lor..haha...that was why we could go out to "shop" lols...then after that when we arrived, we were so damn early man...since we have to wait for like 30mins...we decided to take pictures...there's this cute ground staff at bangkok...they changed the whole of the ground staff...new faces that i don't see often...wati was like so "ga-ga" over him...so we took pictures...haha...but then he kept going off cuz' he was busy with the paperwork...there was another guy la...not really into him...lols...he's the new guy so that cute guy has to teach the new guy that was why he's not in the aircraft most of the time...haha...

all thanks to the last 2 pax that made us reach back only on time..diao...we could have been early man...




of course i also had my pictures although wati stole the limelight lols...ain't he cute?? he's really tall lor...too bad he's ....... so wasted lor...haha...

on my way home...took 858 with weina...gossiping about that pig face in class la...going to be sarcastic tomorrow...lols...cuz' i hadn't had dinner yet...was hungry...went to the coffeeshop at ys's house there to get my dinner...was quite late liao...i was really lucky...it was like 840pm when i reached..they were about to close their shop le...damn lucky man...or not i have to walk even further...plus my giddy spells came back again!!! while getting my food back...DIAO!!! really DIAO lor...sigh...memories came back...how i used to walk that path with * and to wait for his bus, 975 before going home...and how he used to send me home walking that path...i really don't want to think about it...REALLY!!! you may think that i'm trying to think that there's hope or whatever but then, it's true, it never occured to me...just memories that flash past me...sigh...tears almost flowed out...reached home, ate dinner...while having dinner, i just don't understand why lor...eating when sitting down, will also cause my giddy spells to be back again...like diao lor...sigh...i don't know la...now my head's spinning real badly...plus i have school tomorrow...plus on thurs i'm doing 308 which is like coming back 1 plus...and on that very day (fri) still need to do 4 sectors where reporting's like 2 plus...wth la...then on sat doing 716!!! f*** lor...they think i super women ah!!! don't need rest de ah...can die lei like that...don't know enough rest ma...think people who work with me will think i'm a zombie le lor..diao...

alright, got to end here...need an early rest...sch's at 915am tomorrow and need to like wake up at 7am...WOW!!! tired man...

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i'm still thinking about what happened 2days ago...what he really wants...i know when this is posted out, people will start asking him...but please, don't!!!

just came back from 952 this morning...we couldn't get anybody to fetch us back home...sigh...ended up we took this new guy & he appeared to be wendy's friend...charging a dollar cheaper...he's called edward....at least there's a name...next time we know who to call if there's nobody...fast sia back home...he got this nokia navigator handphone...cool man!!! if next time i drive, i will want to have that handphone...all you have to do is just to key in the place you want to go & it'll guide you just like a street directory...except that it can talk la...telling you where to exit & all...so cool lor...lols...you don't have to pay any charges to it...just to on when you need it...at first, i thought edward needs to somewhat pay a fee just to send us back...but he said no, he don't have to...omg!!! this is crazy...cuz' i thought need to pay like some GPRS charges but don't need lei...haha...can consider getting that handphone if you drive a lot on road ba...haha...not bad not bad...

i thought i had to do my 4 sectors...but am so luckily i don't have to do...thanks jay!!! cuz' i reached home at like 6am lei...by the time wash up all that...i have less than 10 hours liao...so i'm going to be really tired lor...edward was so nice to send me till my block there...daphne didn't mind..so nice of her too...got reminded of him...how sean used to send me back home & he will be the one sending me all the way up...really miss him...sigh...

i got to sleep as soon i can...was so tired...after that i got woken up by my brother's dj max game...it was so loud lor...wanted to get back to sleep de..but i can't la...i don't know...nowadays getting less sleep...in fact i can't sleep at times...meals wise really that bad too...sigh...although i don't cry as much as i did the last week but then, it really is hard...i got reminded of him time & time & again...how i wished sometimes, i get knocked down by a car or something that can erase this...i want to get on with life like how he is now...when i met him 2 days ago, he was so much carefree...told me lots of things about his days the last week...unlike last time, he didn't even bothered to tell me things...but just look at his labtop, search for things then play his games & like never talk much about his stuff la...was really happy he opened up...but then....sigh...i really wish la...

keep telling myself, you mustn't think this way...get a life!!! move on...somehow or rather, i just can't lor...i don't know why...i know, i can't make excuses for myself...sigh...but why am i still making all these excuses??? argh!!! i start to hate myself....why? for things that i had done in that relationship...if i wasn't like that, maybe things may work out & doesn't turn out like that....sigh...nevermind, it's over, no point regretting melissa!!!

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